Question #: 2626
June 10, 2020
Aoa
I would appreciate a response in English.
When I was young I got exposed to pornography online and have become addicted ever since. I watch and do an indecent act while watching.
I really want to change, and I’m bayt and do Muraqaba and daily mamulaat of Naqshbandiya but still I have this addiction. It feels very good and my brain has become dependent. Every single time I make this mistake I pray two rakat of tawba and make dua and keep doing my daily adhkar hoping Allah SWT will give me tawfiq to quit.
I also need computers and internet for schoolwork, so I can’t stop using these devices. And then when I watch bayanaat on YouTube it is also very useful. Without these activities I will have nothing to do all day.
I’m too young for marriage, so I started fasting Monday and Thursday and still I have the urge. I also don’t want to share with my parents because it is too embarrassing.
I have been struggling for so long and I feel broken and I feel like giving up. I really want to stop and I tried everything; even so hat of auliya did not change me yet. I cried many times in front of Allah SWT for years and years.
Is there any other solution? Is there any wazeefa? Anything in my ability I want to do because I really want to become close to Allah SWT and want Him to love me, but I am so najis. Please help me, I don’ want to be addicted anymore. I just want Allah SWT to take the haram she heat out of my heart.
Answer #: 2626
الجواب حامدا ومصلیا
Tell all these details to your Sheikh, and keep in touch with him as much as possible. And don't use the Internet in private.
It is a sign that soon Allah Almighty will give you rid of this sin, do not give up and keep trying, even though you are constantly sinning, regretting it and trying to avoid it and being anxious. If you have a sheikh or a sheikh's caliph near you, it is better that you contact him and spend time in his company, and if this is not possible, contact us again.
والله اعلم بالصواب
احقرمحمد ابوبکر صدیق غَفَرَاللّٰہُ لَہٗ
دارالافتاء ، معہد الفقیر الاسلامی، جھنگ
17 ربیع الأوّل، 1442ھ
04 نومبر، 2020ء